| Tuesday, January 30, 2007 |
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I'm sorry... i was wrong... i was stupid... i was foolish... i was selfish... i'm so so sorry... The day had started the worst way for me... and i guess it ended even worse... Everything was wrong and i felt horrible the whole way thru... i donno what to say anymore... "It was a good game" Mr bok said it... And only now... one night after, i agree to it... You all played so hard... At your very best...You all never gave up. I could see the fight. It was a good game... I'm sorry for breaking down and losing hope at the very last min. I knoe i shouldn't have done that. And i feel so bad for saying all those words after that... I'm was so selfish...Too selfish... i was so wrong... I was so caught up with the thought of winning that i forgotten about everything... Most importantly... the stuff the really matters... the determination... I'm so sorry Yvette, i've really let u down. How could i ever doubt u... i'm so sorry... i really am... I hate myself for ever having such thoughts... Bok was right to not put me in the last quarter... You deserved it so much more... Pls don't ever feel guilty... it wasn't you fault... You tried your best... You gave it all u've got... You never gave up. That's what truly matters... How could i let the fact of winning or losing blind me from what really mattered... Where was my sportsmanship... i only made matters worse... i'm so very sorry... Although we have lost... it was a good game... and knowing that you all have put in your best effort and strove hard for it is all that matters... winning and losing does not really matter that much... Although we won't be able to get into the second rounds... At least we tried... And the best part is that we have improved so much... From our first carnival... losing focus and giving up...this game was different... it really was... We gave it our best... that's all that matters... thank you for comforting me when i was so sad over the useless fact of not winning... i was childish... but thank you for spending the time for that... i'm really very grateful and touched... i shouldn't have been so upset... it was all for the wrong reason... winning or losing doesn't really matter...but thank you anyways... u all really helped me get past my childish thinking... thank you... thank you so very much... i can't be more grateful... i'm sorry for my childish thinking... i really am... i've let down the whole team for such thinking... i'm so sorry... i'm sorry yvette... i didn't mean to hurt u... i'm so sorry... |