| Tuesday, June 03, 2008 |
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sometimes i wonder when i even bother... there's something missing in my life.... cuz something is not quite right... there's no more motivation... no more fun.. no more spice... life is BORING. and it totally sucks... so what if it's e holidays... so what if i have all the time now... it's doesn't make much of a difference... i'm bored to TEARS. believe me... i can predict what people will say... i can tell what they are thinking before they let it slip out i know what they will do i sense how they feel i get what they are trying to say from the very first words... is that good? NO. cuz everything happens as expected! and it's SO VERY BORING is it that i got so used to this... or that people don't change... or that i' not paying attention to the tiny, insignificant difference... I"M SO SICK OF IT ALL. it's like i'm stuck in a cycle... and it just keeps going round and round and round.... it's time to do something crazy... it's time to MOVE ON. ... anyways... don't you hate it when people go back on their promise... or what about those who keep talking about things they want to do... yet never actually make ANY effort to make any come true? okay, actually i don't really care if it's all about them... however... whatever they are doing.. they are affecting ME... and i hate it. i'm so so irritated. so frustrated. is it me? am i too playful? cuz i seriously doubt so. i've been stuck at home for way too long. and i'm dying to GET OUT. the most pathetic part is that i can't... maybe i made the wrong choice. right from the start... it was all wrong... perhaps i'm not suited for such a life style. perhaps i've been torturing myself for too long.. i'm not sitting at the corner anymore... i getting up and i'm going to PLAY. |