EMO jamie.

tisk... what is it with people saying so!

well...it's not that i'm trying to be, or acting it all up.
this time i really cannot help it.

my body has collapsed under the stress and lack of sleep. i'm SICK. argggg... felt terrible after coming home on wednesday. actually i think i got so angry, i started to burn up. tisk. problems problems...(*). sometimes i really wish i had the GUTS to step up and say what i really have to say. BUT then.. there's always the "reputation", and then the hard work i've put in all these times. Of course there are the other members, which i will NEVER hurt. tisk. If only...
since i've gotten the memory replaying... might as well DISCUSS. (grrr) there was house meeting in wednesday. Gosh and i DREADED going. First time! =( Got pushed up to lead our tagore "glory" dance. Seriously, it was a total disaster. So much for having fun and "passing it down generations after generations". HA! The rest of the time was briefing... (*)
Only now, have i realised that is it QUITE useless to have such system. I mean, what's the use of having the whole school population separated to inform them about the same thing! Moreover... it's time consuming and troublesome. We should just go to the hall. I'm sure it would actually get more people's attention. HMM.

alright, back to topic... EMO.
classes are stepping up a notch and i'm not following well. I have no idea why. ='(
let's evaluate...
Amath's proof is DIFFICULT! no idea how to even start. -_-
Emath is STILL a bore.
Physic is in the lab! which is BAD. very bad! too much distractions.
Chem is ALWAYS in the lab. Organic chem has no meaning to me. 0.o so what if it's saturated? Recently covered fuel in one period and i am no different from going in than coming out. -_- what DID we learn in there?!?!
Bio is GREAT. =D reproduction in humans rocks. Mrs yap too! yay...
Humans are some what the same... copy copy copy. =) and of course spending some time wondering HOw on earth the guys at the back manage to answer the questions... i can't think!!!! ahh!

yup... so there is seriously nothing to rejoice about. Not to mention the TESTS EVERY SINGLE DAY! argggg. dying!

lastly... there is my new RESPONSIBILITY. -_-
it cannot get any worse!!!!
i'm a FLAG BARRIER on national day. GREAT. marching was NEVER my kinda thing. In fact, let me REemphasize that i don't particularly ENJOY marching. Which is the reason why i never ever considered joining any UG. ='(
i did try to squeeze outta it, but as u know...(*). So yea. i'm still stuck with it. *bitter smile*
training on fridays and wednesdays. there goes my free time.... =(. thanks to joshua and jasper for being ever so patient. I'm absolutely clueless about EVERYTHING. Of course thanks to Justin, who comes along once in a while to explain something to me AND saying i have "no standard". SIGH... so much for hoping i won't screw the whole parade up. =( all back to (*) again. tisk... (*******) Don't even see their shadows there anyways! -_- how supportive.
OHHH! ms low is really nice. haha, not that i don't already know that but... just emphasizing it here. =D She was extremely supportive. Not to mention even coming up to ask about my well being. PLUS! her words of encouragement. =) yay. (sighhh, if only she was in charge of tagore... <3 musical ="DDD